Where I draw the line
I haven’t cleaned my room in weeks. The pile of magazines to be read is about a foot high. I’ve been skipping workouts, which I don’t do. I didn’t wear makeup a single day last week. You don’t want to know how long it’s been since I shaved my legs.
Basically, I’ve fallen apart a bit over the past few weeks. I’ve always been a busy person, but I’ve never been this purely overwhelmed. Between going to New York, spending a weekend at home, surviving a test and project or paper in every class and keeping up with the magazine schedule, life has been more than a bit insane lately. As a result, anything not absolutely crucial has been thrown to the wayside, which, really, is fine with me. The trips were definitely worth it, and I can survive sleep deprivation for a while. It was the crazy time of the semester, and this is the craziest semester, so it’s to be expected even. I’ll get rid of the extra padding around my waist eventually, and besides, how important are smooth legs anyway?
But I draw the line with my friends. For three weeks, I’ve been out of town on weekends and swamped during the week, so I feel like I’ve withdrawn from the world and lost my social life. I’ve been running around like a chicken with its head cut off, so I was excited just to be able to stay home and get things done for an evening. Plus, stress and exhaustion sap my social butterfly mojo, so I haven’t been getting out much.
And this, more than anything, is the problem with all the chaos. I miss my friends. I’ll put up with stress, being tired and my overloaded plate, but I’m not ok without my friends. Normally I pride myself on keeping in touch, and I’m usually the instigator of plans. But not lately – and I feel like I’ve been a terrible friend as a result.
So consider this my formal apology for being absent from the world for three weeks. Now that I’ve made it through the madness, I’m determined t0 make up for lost time. Expect phone calls, facebook messages and texts coming from me in large quantities. In fact, I’ve already made several plans and have a weekend full of friends coming up.
I will probably always be a busy person. I will probably never get a lot of sleep. And I knew it before, but I’ve been reminded once again: All that other stuff aside, I can’t live without my friends.